Update...

Well, I have been thinking about whether or not I was going to really share what we are going through, and after having talked it over with the hubs and people I trust, I decided to go for it. As many people know, Rick and I have been trying for some time to get pregnant. After almost of year of trying on our own, I started some medication to help induce ovulation, since it seemed my body was picky as to which month it wanted to do it naturally. I took Clomid for 4 months last year and NOTHING. After the last month didn't work, we decided to try the old fashioned way and then, if nothing happened, see the fertility Doctor again after the first of the year. The doctor had also said that I should try to lose some weight to see if that would help. So, I joined a bootcamp in Calimesa and did just that. 35 pounds later and still no baby to show for it, we decided to see Dr Jacobson again. We did our first round of IUI in June. I had two follicles and he had a post wash count of 16 million swimmers. The wait after the procedure is horrendous. Two weeks of what ifs and bam. Aunt Flow. I was sooooo bummed. Rick, my wonderful husband, was there of course to pick me up and give me the lets try again speech. So, we did. For the second attempt I had 4 follicles and he had an amazing count of 49 million. I was super distracted during my 2 week wait because my best friend was in town. I was hopeful and positive and it still didn't work. This time, double crushed. It seems like we are doing everything right and the doctor is hopeful but it still doesn't work. I am losing hope, and quickly. SO, we are here on the eve of my day 9 injection and I am praying that this will be the last shot I have to get. I want to be a mom so bad. I know that God is in control and that someday, this will happen for us. Its just that waiting is the hardest part.

It's been awhile...

Wow. I can't believe that I haven't been on here in almost a year. I wish i could say that there have been a lot of changes, but things are kinda the same for us. We are still really trying to have a baby. It is not happening for us naturally, so we have enlisted the help of a fertility doctor. Man. Trying to have a baby is expensive. How do these girls on teen mom get knocked up so darn easy? I can't wait for the day I get my BFP (positive test lingo on the fertility forums). I know that all of these sad times will not matter anymore and I will be so excited for our turn. For now, I get my baby fix through my two favorite baby boys, Lukas and Eddie. Love me some baby time! My friends and family make freakin cute kids, if I do say so myself. On the school front, I am taking the summer off. I go back in September to take another stats class (yuck!). Then it's only one more quarter until clinicals. I am soooooo nervous. But, my dad used to say that biologically, our bodies recognize nervousness and excitement the same way. He was so smart :). Still miss him everyday. Can't believe how the time has flown by. Hopefully this will be the start of me getting back into this. I love having an outlet for my thoughts, even if no one reads them. :)